Song of the moment: Fade By Staind

I don't buy it.

Gumbys Totoro: do you think that you're right about everything you ever do?
I am NOT pangit: Do I know you?
Gumbys Totoro: i just want you to answer, miladel.
I am NOT pangit: You don't always get what you want, stranger.
Gumbys Totoro: i dont know.
Gumbys Totoro: you just seem to have this impression that im still crying over my past involving you three people.
I am NOT pangit: Oh, do I?
I am NOT pangit: That's interesting since I don't.
Gumbys Totoro: "Everything always trails back to her, doesn't? Just because you were practically in love with the girl and you're bitter that she didn't like you back as started treating you like shit, doesn't mean you can make her a reason to use as a comeback. "
I am NOT pangit: Oh, I just said that because I wanted to fill in a debate.
Gumbys Totoro: i wasnt using her as a comeback, you know. i was just using her because she was the first example i could think of. i mean, i dont really know anyone else you do
Gumbys Totoro: i mean, i really dont hate you or anything.
Gumbys Totoro: i just dont know why you feel its necessary to flame people who haven't done anything wrong
Gumbys Totoro: or at least try to put them down
Gumbys Totoro: im just trying to help people out, i dont know if i am, but i'd rather have a nicer perspective on things than trying to put other people down all the time.
Gumbys Totoro: i guess i've just changed a lot the past year
I am NOT pangit: Right. Somehow, I don't believe it.
Gumbys Totoro: and thats about it i suppose. i don't really know why i told you all of this, but i just felt you should know
I am NOT pangit: Yet..
I am NOT pangit: I don't know you
I am NOT pangit: and you don't know me
Gumbys Totoro: dont believe what?
I am NOT pangit: That you truly "changed" this time
Gumbys Totoro: i dont know you mil. you're right. but i can only assume what you must be like based on your actuions
Gumbys Totoro: oh.
Gumbys Totoro: well, you don't have to believe it.
Gumbys Totoro: i dont mind.
Gumbys Totoro: i went to a different school this year
Gumbys Totoro: being involved with the drama club and improv team
I am NOT pangit: That's nice. Why don't you go tell it to a wall.
Gumbys Totoro: heh.
Gumbys Totoro: why do you do that?
I am NOT pangit: Sure, on my spare time.
I am NOT pangit: I'm pathetic like that, right?
Gumbys Totoro: no, you're not pathetic
I am NOT pangit: Just sad.
I am NOT pangit: Right?
I am NOT pangit: Since you feel so sorry for me and all.
I am NOT pangit: Heh
Gumbys Totoro: yeah. i feel sorry for you.
I am NOT pangit: Well there you go.
I am NOT pangit: I don't want your fucking pity.
Gumbys Totoro: but i dont think you're sad or pathetic
Gumbys Totoro: who said i was pitying you?
I am NOT pangit: It's almost the same.
Gumbys Totoro: no.
I am NOT pangit: And it's hard to tell if you do or you don't.
Gumbys Totoro: pity is more looking down on you.
Gumbys Totoro: i dont look down on you at all.
Gumbys Totoro: i just wish you'd be nicer sometimes.
I am NOT pangit: You can't change my entire character just by wishing.
Gumbys Totoro: yeah, i can't.
Gumbys Totoro: but i dont know.
Gumbys Totoro: i just think living this way won't make you any happier.
Gumbys Totoro: just more angry with things you don't really care about in the grand scheme of things.
Gumbys Totoro: well i hope this wasn't wasted. im going to go to bed. cya.

This world would be so boring if everyone loved each other and even the smallest amount of hate was non-existant. But yeah, George talks as if I'm mean to everyone, all the time. It pisses me off that he pretends to care.... and even if we were to just say that he did, it pisses me off even more. If that were the case, it's fucking lame how he acts like some kind of monk that is all anti-hate as if he was Ghandi or something. He tries to reply something witty everytime I would "flame" some newb at DDR Freak. First of all, it's DDR Freak. Second of all, it's the Internet. Third of all, even if the person that I "flamed" was offended, then they'll fucking get over it and forget what I said in a matter of days... a week, at the most. But being affected by an insult that someone gave to you for more than a day is... let's say, obsessive. This can also go for "Internet Love", also. I PERSONALLY think that online relationships are a waste of time, unless you actually plan on taking a plane from New York to Bosnia just to see the wife that you married over the digital world of the computer. I would say that was a little obsessive. But hey, don't let anyone get hurt by MY OWN personal opinion.

Sure, I got mad when DJ Comet said that, but it was just a little trigger that zoomed past the DDR Freak thread, and it was gone. I get over things fast, if they're little insignificant crap like that. But if they're consecutive, non-meaning (to me anyways. I'm not sure about him) crap with my and George, then yes. I do tend to get more bitter than normal. But he's George. So much crap has happened between the two of us, in between his fake suicidal attemps (was that him or Chris? I don't remember), he's like... dead to me.

Off that topic [somewhat], this guy IMed me on the climax of my bitterness. I was pissed off when he IMed me, so it kind of rubbed off when I was talking to him.

Random Wierdo: Pardon me.
I am NOT pangit: ?
Random Wierdo: You have my AIM SN on your web-blog. I'd kindly appreciate it if you censored it.
I am NOT pangit: Uhh, I do?
Random Wierdo: Yes
I am NOT pangit: you're not o cipher o
I am NOT pangit: err forgot what his name was..
Random Wierdo: No.
Random Wierdo: I'm Xeno.
I am NOT pangit: heh
Random Wierdo: Please censor my AIM SN on your blog.
I am NOT pangit: I don't even remember talking to you
I am NOT pangit: Ever.
Random Wierdo: That's fine n dandy but could you remove it please?
I am NOT pangit: YOU DON'T GET IT.
I am NOT pangit: How can I remove something that I don't remember putting there?
I am NOT pangit: And I don't care if it's there and i just forgot.
I am NOT pangit: It's probably in the archives
I am NOT pangit: but I don't give a shit, it's my blog
I am NOT pangit: hack it if you want
I am NOT pangit: I don't give a shit.
I am NOT pangit: I wonder, why you would even care if your name was in my blogger anyways.
I am NOT pangit: Has any of my readers IM you?
I am NOT pangit: Have they?
I am NOT pangit: If that's the case, then i'll look for your insignificant AIM screen name in my shitty blogger and fucking cencor it
I am NOT pangit: *censor
Random Wierdo: No I havn't gotten any messages but a convo of ours is on it. I'd simply appreciate it if you censored it. I will not hack it.
I am NOT pangit: Oh, okay. Then no.
I am NOT pangit: The only way your name will be taken off my blogger is if you hack it.
I am NOT pangit: And I'd like to see you try.
I am NOT pangit: Really, I would.
I am NOT pangit: Even if you do manage to do it.
I am NOT pangit: It would be funny.
I am NOT pangit: It's as if I was waving a piece of meat at some hungry dog.
Xenostalgia: Did I come to you in a rude fasion?
I am NOT pangit: No, I'm just bitter. And I admit to it. You caught me at a wrong time.
I am NOT pangit: I guess I should apologize
I am NOT pangit: But I won't.
Random Wierdo: No apology, I'd just request you censor my AIM sn because I would prefer it wasn't out on your blog. Nothing against you.
I am NOT pangit: Was it from a long time ago?
I am NOT pangit: I seriously don't remember.
Random Wierdo: A while ago.
I am NOT pangit: Do you have any idea how hard it would be to go through my hundreds of posts just to cencor your name?
I am NOT pangit: Plus, I doubt anyone else will see your screen name on my blogger
Random Wierdo: Please.
I am NOT pangit: since not very many people look at the archives anyway
I am NOT pangit: I would have to go through hundreds of posts
I am NOT pangit: I can't do that right now
Random Wierdo: http://fastidious_fiend.blogspot.com/2003_01_05_fastidious_fiend_archive.html
Random Wierdo: Thursday, January 09, 2003
I am NOT pangit: god damnit, FINE
I am NOT pangit: since it's hard for me to edit that actual post
Random Wierdo: Thanks
I am NOT pangit: it might even be fucking IMPOSSIBLE
I am NOT pangit: but i'll delete that post
I am NOT pangit: i'll' take it off the fucking archives
I am NOT pangit: Happy/
I am NOT pangit: *?
Random Wierdo: Yes.
I am NOT pangit: Okay, bye.

*block*

Hrmph. I was about to leave his shitty little screen name here just to spite him, but I wont. It's very temping though... I could be like, "Oh, I don't believe in censorship so SORRY BUDDY". Damnit. I'm starting to feel a little guilty thinking about not-censoring his name. I just took out the censors, but then I put them back on.

To do or not to do. That, is the question.

Oh, pooey. My nice side just kicked in. I'm not taking it out of the archives, though. I'm too fucking lazy. And yes, it's my blogger. Whointhefuckcaresanyways.

(Mother yelling)

I'll add a commentary on this later. I stil haven't even done my homework yet. ~_~